Dear ME:
First, i want to say, with tears in my eyes…
I am truly sorry.
I am extremely sad and disheartened that I have not loved you enough. Lessons in life have taught you a great deal. Great deals that have put you through so much. You have been hurt… you have disappointed… you have been judged and you have been shattered severally into broken pieces I cannot count. I know this hurt and pain have overshadowed the glitters of promising love that has come your way.
Pain and hurts can be ironic and amusing at the same time.
You just don’t know from where it would come this time. People play with your emotions, sometimes, like it was a baseball game. It doesn’t matter if you’re hurt or not… deal with it, your mind tells your heart, every day. No one deserves to be hurt this much. Sweet me, I want you to know that whatever the groaning or grieving you experiencing now, be it the loss of a loved one, or a version of yourself you never wanted to become, or even the disappointment that made you sick all the time… just know that,
It’s an undefined emotion, a shadow of itself.
The real deal:
It definitely hurts to be hurt, and surprisingly enough, it also hurts not to be hurt. Yes… because you know something, sweet Me. All these mixed emotions make you UNIQUE.
Darling self, i want to tell you this world is expecting soo much from you and there are lot of things to offer, you can’t afford to give up on all your dreams. You were created for exploits and to make things happen.
Your past failures and disappointments doesn’t define you.
Regardless of your present status, always remember you were born to be great, you were born to help multitude of people on this planet and nothing can stop it.
I want you to know that you are STRONG, and you can be a better version of yourself. Don’t let the hurt determine your BEAUTY.
You are YOU, no ONE can be YOU.
So please stop the fault blaming to protect you from hurting. I need you because you are my best companion and ally.
I am sorry for not seeing you for you.
I am sorry for not loving again.
I am sorry for turning my back on you.
Indeed, I am extremely sorry for letting my hurt take the best version of myself.
I really hope one day you will embrace me for me.
I want you to know that I appreciate you and I love you more than anything in the world, of course after my love for God.
We will make ourselves proud one day and the whole world will applaud us for being us.
Love,
jeje.